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What is the Purpose of my Life?


By Brigitte Gastel written August 1974 in Belleville, Illinois
What is the purpose I am living for?*
        Life seems so endless long
And yet so short in a way*
        What is it I want to touch?

        With my emotions still so strong
Is it the emptiness in me*
        Which paralyzes my body and mind
Is it love my heart does long for*
        Do I wait for our world ever to be kind
Am I a dreamer?*
        Of something I never will be able to do
What is constantly changing my mind? *

Am I in the middle of a circle*
        Which never will come to an end?
Won't it ever stop to let me off*
        Do I wait for a miracle to be sent?
Do I fight the reality of life?*
        Why don't I feel secure
And why am I not sure*
        What's holding me down
Why is my face showing a frown? *

Because I am hiding what touches my soul*
        And it is stabbing me like a knife
Is it because I am not accomplishing my goal?*
        And I can't live my life
To the sweet sweet sound of Rock'n Roll? *

So I just have to be free*
        And gotta be me, you see
Not try to please everybodyelse*
        Not to put on a different face
Not to take anybody's place*
        Not to look at the world through haze
And slowing down to a different pace*
        Whom am I going to amaze?

        Most of all it's me -you see-
Because it is me who is holding the key*
        To happiness - wherever it will be-